I know where you are coming from. Our 2008 summer holiday was booked before hubby was made redundant in August 2007(the day we got home from holiday!). He got another job, but unfortunately that too soon went pear shaped and last August we went away with a sense of deja vu, not knowing if he would have a job to come home to- he's a quantity surveyor. I think there were two sides to it, firstly it felt wrong in some respects to be spending money on a holiday that we could otherwise use to 'live', pay bills, cover the essentials etc if he lost his job and didn't find something else. The other thing was we ended up with such high expectations of the holiday- we went away knowing that it could be the last holiday we might have in a long time, so we needed to make the most of it. As a result I didn't enjoy the holiday half as much I expected to, but I think I was expecting too much.
He was made redundant in the end,in October last year and against all the odds found another job. So....we have booked this year's holiday. I am excited, but there is a part of me that is holding back, knowing that if anything happens, I couldn't justify using most of our savings to pay for it and we would have to cancel.
I hope you get your holiday!!
Pam